Yeah. I feel alive. Everything’s been better lately. I feel like a person. A real human being. Feel like I’ve been slowly waking up from a long sleep, or something. My brain started functioning again. I’ve been having ideas. Funny… didn’t know my brain was asleep, but now that it is starting to wake up, I realize it’s been hibernating for a long time. It is stretching, yawning, sniffing the air... its circulation has slowly been increasing. I don’t think it is fully awake yet, but it is getting there. It is sensing that the winter is almost gone and there’s a scent of spring in the air. (Really, fall is what it is, but spring works better with the metaphor, hehe…) It is inhaling it. Drinking it in. Filling its lungs with it. Preparing to launch into a new season.
It’s not that anything on the outside has changed. Things are really no better or worse than they were months ago. But on the inside I feel alive. I feel like a part of me that has been hidden and numb for a long, long time is starting to stick its head out there, starting to show up. It’s like the real me finally decided to come forward.
Time might have something to do with it. Looking back, always working more than one job and running ragged all the time has probably not been a great recipe for a spicy inner life. Now, I feel I finally have time to be me. I’m a slow person. I require a lot of time. It takes awhile for me to do most things. I do them well, and thoroughly, given enough time. With too little time I neglect to even try. It’s that all-or-nothing mentality that has been plaguing me all my life. But I’m realizing, even being me requires a lot of time. Time to think. Time to get in touch with my emotions, my fears, my desires, my… thoughts. They require time. Simple as that.
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What a wonderful feeling to feel alive again. To think clearly again. I have been in and out of fogs of my own before!
Have a great weekend.
Alexandra: Glad you're here! :D
Deana: Yes, being out of the fog is a great way to put it. Enjoy your weekend, too!
Have a great time as YOU! Enjoy the peace, take a good cup of tea and a deap breath and just LIVE...
That's great. Sounds like you are in a good place right now. Hope it lasts for you!
Have a great day! Michele sent me...
Å være seg selv fullt og helt, å kunne leve med alle deler av seg selv, eller i hvert fall flere etter hvert som tiden går...Det er en god utvikling.
David - Yep, I think that's just what I'll do. Thanks for checking out my site, by the way! You know, we sort of knew each other once upon a time, in a somewhat distant past... or should I say, it was more like our parents knew each other... anyway, that was a long time ago (considering you're reaching such an old age and all) hehe :)
Karen - hey, thanks for stopping by.. or should I say thanks Michele, hehe! I'm going to check out your blog when I get a minute, gotta run right now. But thanks for the comment, I hope so too! Of course, these feelings don't last forever, but they're often enough to give you a boost to start a new chapter or continue the one you're in with new energy.
Grete - som vanlig full av visdom! Gleder meg til å fortsette å lese mer fra deg.
Hi Hanulf! Thank you for stopping by my blog earlier. I enjoyed my visit here and your writing very much - expecially the God and Dad one. Great stuff!
I saw you also found Pearl - I love her blog! She is like a multivitamin for me in the morning! =)
Tia - hey, thanks for the kind words. Yes - I love Pearl! Glad I found her blog.
Så godt å høre! Jeg kjenner meg litt igjen i det du skriver. Jeg også trenger tid til å finne meg selv på en måte. Hvis livet blir for travelt og fyllt opp med skole, jobb, stress og kav, rekker jeg ikke å "blomstre" til den jeg egentlig er. Du har så mye fint på innsiden som jeg er så glad du deler med oss.
Ha en fin vår i høst da! ;)
Hei, Karina! Hyggelig at du stakk innom igjen, og takk for fin kommentar. Ja, i høst tror jeg at jeg får en veldig fin vårblomstring! hehe
I read down through a few of your posts and really enjoyed them. I will come back to read more soon.
Michele sent me this time.
Hi Mitey Mite! Thanks for stopping by... and for reading some of my stuff! I'll check out your site too.
Enjoy feeling alive. I've certainly gone through long "dead" periods myself, so I know exactly what you mean.
Love your profile pic!!
Here via michele!
Welcome to the planet.... I am waiting patiently to awaken as well.. I understand what you are feeling. I'll be back to read more.. found you on Michele's..
i can relate... my brain feels the same way right now... i see you are new to blogging, just this month. congrats on getting up and running and since you've discovered michele's meet n greet, you'll have regular readers in no time! very intriguing posts you have here... mine used to be, then i think my brain fried somewhere along the way....
Here from Michele tonight - I enjoyed your post. I think we all go through phases like this, and it's important to recognize them and be thankful for them.
Have a wonderful evening.
I think everybody requires time for that Hanulf, but some people just don't know it yet.
Eventually, we all wake-up to the real person who lives inside our bodies.
Panthergirl: Thanks!
JsDaughter: You'll wake up. Eventually. It might just take some time, especially after the kind of loss you recently went through. But you will... and it will be that much sweeter when you do!
Killired: Thanks for great input on several of my posts... yep, I'm pretty new at this, but I realized Michele's great for new bloggers! :D I'm going to go take a good look at your site shortly.
Erin: Thanks for stopping by!
Kenju: You're right... I'm starting to realize that.
I love the way you write! Keep it up! By the way, I have heard your cries and have FINALLY posted some pics to my website (3 new posts!)...and there will be more coming...uh...soon. Yeah!
Yay - Renee! I'm going to check them out NOW! :)
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