MacLuv

So I just purchased my first Apple computer. This shiny new white MacBook is shimmering before my eyes and inciting my fingertips at the present moment, and the first few hours of familiarizing myself with this sensational object have found me madly in love and pining for all things Mac.

My first introduction to the wonderful world of Apple was my iPod Nano, and after watching Steve Jobs' announcement of the iPhone a few months back I found myself drooling over this piece of technology and considered for the first time switching from PC to Mac - and eventually converting to an all-Mac household.

It is quite unlike me to succumb to seduction by technology; hubby is the gadget-buff in the family and as long as I've had something to run a word processor, internet access and enough storage for a few hundred photos, I've been snug as a bug in a rug as far as computers go. So when my old laptop crashed last year I simply just moved all my files over to one of hubby’s “older” PCs (we always seem to have a plethora of computers and other electronic devices around here) and continued unencumbered.

Well, recently I decided to take a last-minute trip back to Scandinavia next month and realized a laptop would be invaluable for traveling without hubby (who always brings his). The agonizing choice was between a smokin’ alpine white Dell Inspiron (more bang for the buck, compatibility with software, etc.) and the MacBook (added learning curve but enormous coolness factor). After much deliberation I decided to take the plunge into MacWorld, and so far have not regretted it one bit.

One issue I should mention is that apparently, Apple’s browser Safari does not function well with Blogger, but after installing Firefox I don’t seem to have any further problems posting to or editing the blog.

Feathered Friends

feathers fly -
a lump in the road
bloodied

Haiku for One Deep Breath

Shadow and Light

a new day
only comes after night –
be patient
___

the black cat sleeps
outstretched, next to a ball –
the yellow cat
___

moonlight seeps
through tree branch and sheers –
quiet house





for One Deep Breath

Shit Happens

It’s been a while since I updated the blog. There are some reasons for that, even beyond the fact that I’ve always been a pretty random blogger. Some bigger and some smaller reasons, but, well, life happens. Not always the way you want it to happen, but you can’t stop it from happening. So when you’re feeling, like I have been lately, that life stacks up against you and conspires to destroy the things you value most, to shake up the things you’ve always relied upon, to keep just out of reach the things you thought would make you happy, well, then the question becomes how do you respond. Do you let the life bulldozer roll over you and flatten you into the ground, or do you stand up and fight? I am determined to take life by the horns and wrestle with it until I know what it is I am fighting for, until I have regained some ground under my feet and realigned my priorities. I cannot rely on someone or something else for my happiness; I have to find that within myself. Life is for the taking, and even if circumstances seem out of my control at times, I think I’m better off just letting go. Not letting go of the circumstances, but letting go of the need to control them. Because I can’t, and it seems the harder I try to keep them in control, the more out of control they get. What I can control is me and my own responses. Where is that happy balance between being in touch with your feelings, and still not letting your feelings rule your life? I sometimes miss that strong, independent person I once was, but I know that person was also very walled off and out of touch with her emotions. Lately it’s been like I’m wearing my emotions on my sleeve, and instead of me being in control of my life, my emotions threaten to control me. It is time to come back to center. To let myself feel, but not let the feelings kick my butt. To find strength from within, but not shut off to the outside world. This is my quest; I’ve always enjoyed a challenge, so here we go!